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52 Weeks of Gratitude – Week 2

Week 2: Significant Other

It has been said that you cannot fall in love with somebody else until you learn to love yourself first, nor can you be happy with another person if you cannot be happy by yourself. I have always brushed those two sayings aside, because I wrongly believed it did not matter if I was able to love myself or be happy by myself in order to be in a relationship. I was under the false assumption that my significant other would make me happy and love me, so it did not matter if I could do these things for myself. What I did not recognize was the amount of pressure I would place on someone else to make me happy, nor how I was hurting myself by relying on others for one of the most important things – self-love.

I have operated in this fashion since my first “serious” relationship in middle school. Rather than focusing my energy on loving myself and doing things that made me happy, I focused on what my significant other could do for me. If I could go back in time and tell my 14-year-old self one thing (okay, let’s be real…there are MANY things I wish I could say), it would be to love myself fully and NOT rely on someone else to give me feelings of love and happiness. I was allowing other people to have entirely too much control over my life, and it eventually began to tear me apart.

I am not going to go into the full story of my past in this blog post because I want to focus on my current relationship and the gratitude I feel towards my boyfriend everyday. However, I do need to mention a few things to provide a backstory to how I got to the point I am at today. Typically, the guys I have dated in the past have never built me up, but rather have torn me down. I cannot place all of the blame on them because, like I mentioned before, I placed pressure on them to make me happy and love me, so that I could be happy with and love myself. There is one particular relationship that was so emotionally draining it caused me to lose myself. I became someone I never knew before. I did not know how to be happy and I certainly did not love myself. Dealing with conditional love for over a year left me feeling like I could never do anything right again.

One thing I realized that had happened was that I left God out of my life during these bad relationships. After the above-mentioned relationship ended, I was lost. I wanted to stay in bed all day and not do anything. I grew more and more depressed and began thinking I would never find a decent guy. One of the best things I could have done during that time was begin going back to church, doing devotionals, and growing closer with God. I prayed that God would guide me to the right man and put my faith in Him. Instead of spending energy searching for a relationship, I spent the energy on finding the things that make me happy again. And most importantly, I began to love myself again. One realization I had was that God loves me even though I sin daily and am unworthy of His love. Because of His unconditional love for me, I grew to love myself again. And because of His forgiveness towards me, I was able to forgive those who had hurt me in the past. This forgiveness brought me peace, because the hurtful people in my past were no longer allowed to have control over me and I could move on to the next chapter of my life.

I had to share the above antecedent so you could understand (somewhat) the journey I’ve gone through when it comes to relationships. So now, here comes the good news: I’ve met the guy of my dreams, the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, and I have no doubts in my mind that it was God who brought us together. His name is Christopher, but I only call him that when he is in “trouble,” other times I just call him Chris. When he first asked me on a date, I could not believe it. Here was a handsome (okay, HOT), tall, firefighter with a dazzling smile and an incredibly cute puppy, and he wanted to take ME out on a date.

Chris and I

My boyfriend Chris and I

We had planned to go to the movies on a Saturday in June. I had butterflies in my stomach the whole week before the date was set to happen. I was so nervous but so excited at the same time. We had been texting beforehand and I felt like I had already known him for months. Then, I received a disappointing text saying he could not make it on Saturday because he was having problems with his truck. My heart immediately sank and I thought I must have scared him off. But, we made plans for Sunday afternoon instead, and I remember just praying he would show. Well, my worrying was for nothing (which I have learned it always is), because Sunday came and we went to see 22 Jump Street and laughed and laughed. Something happened during the movie and about halfway through, the screen just shut off. About 15 minutes later it came back on, but it just gave us something else to laugh about.

Chris and I on a date

Chris and I on one of our first dates

After that first date I knew that I wanted him in my life. It is hard to explain that feeling you get when you go on a date with someone but it does not feel like anything you have ever felt before, and it is just like a “you know this person is different and special” feeling. We continued hanging out, almost every day, and we had fun hanging out and doing nothing because it felt like everything I had ever wanted. On July 6 of 2014, we “officially” became boyfriend and girlfriend, but we were also becoming best friends as well, which is something I have always wanted to be with my significant other.

Silly photo of Chris and I

Chris and I being goofy

Words cannot even begin to describe how grateful I am to have Chris in my life. He does not belittle me, he does not tell me I need to diet and exercise, and he does not make me feel like less of a person for being myself. I can be as weird as I want around him and he still loves me (which he better because he is pretty weird himself, hehe). I prayed to God that He would send the right man into my life and I truly believe He has. I am no longer relying on Chris to make me happy or to love me, but rather I do those things myself and think of how I can make Chris happy and feel loved. And that is how a relationship should be. It took me a long time to learn that but I am so glad I did.

Chris and I dressed up

Chris and I dressed up at my cousin’s wedding

In a way, I am grateful for my past and the way it worked out. It taught me a lot about life, love and relationships. And allowed me to become a better person, as well as to realize what I deserve – which is a man exactly like Chris: caring, generous, kind, funny, loyal, family-oriented, sweet, considerate, etc. (I could list a bunch more positive adjectives to describe Chris but I will not make you read anything too mushy). He builds me up and encourages me when I feel down. He cooks for me (c’mon now, you are lying if you say you do not love a man that can cook). And he loves me unconditionally, for which I am incredibly grateful.

Chris and I at Cumberland Falls

Chris and I at Cumberland Falls

I thank God every night for placing Chris in to my life. I cannot wait to see what our future holds together as I am sure God has something amazing planned (I can feel it). I have gone through trials and tribulations to get to where I am now but I believe it was all worth it. God has placed Chris and I together, to begin a journey together, and I know with Him guiding us, we will make it an incredible one. To end this blog post, I just want to give a big THANK YOU to Chris, for not just being the man I want in my life, but the man God knows I need. I appreciate every little thing you do for me, and for loving me just the way I am. I look forward to tackling and enjoying life by your side, no matter what is thrown our way. I love you!

Chris and I on Christmas Eve

Chris and I on Christmas Eve

Thank you for reading my blog post written for the second week of my gratitude challenge! I look forward to sharing more with you in the following weeks. Stay tuned!

–Megan

52 Weeks of Gratitude – Week 1

Week 1: Why start this challenge?

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Why would I want to write about gratitude surrounding pre-determined topics for 52 whole weeks?! Here’s why…

To become more self-aware. I want to take the time to actually consider what I’m thankful for and why, and how that gratitude impacts my life. I hope I can learn to become more thankful for things, and to share my gratitude regularly. I often forget all of the things I have to be thankful for and jump to the things I don’t have or the things that aren’t going my way. I would like to turn this thought process around and believe I can through the process of this challenge.

To share my gratitude. By being given 52 topics, I will be forced to think of and evaluate my gratitude towards things that otherwise may not immediately come to my mind. I can’t wait to share my gratitude with others through my blog, but also in my everyday life as well. I also aspire to find different ways to share my kindness with others. Even if I am not thanked for my time, energy, etc. I know that I have done something to make a positive impact in someone’s life. It isn’t all about the thanks and acknowledgment, you should do things for others because it makes you feel good. I’ve learned that over the years and can’t wait to continue acting it out.

To hold me accountable. Anyone who follows my blog knows that I often slack on updating it. Even if you read my past posts, there are long gaps of time passing between each blog entry. I really do have good intentions of updating my blog often. I would love to blog every day, but time just does not always allow that. I love to write and share with the world, but life gets in the way sometimes. By doing this challenge, I am committing to writing in my blog at least once a week. That may not seem like much, but I have gone about a YEAR without writing in my blog before, and that’s something I don’t want to happen again. I want my words to reach others and inspire them, entertain them, and whatever other positive things others may gain from reading my blog.

This may not have been the most exciting blog post, but I followed along with the first weekly topic of the challenge! In other exciting news, I am taking a blogging 101 course through WordPress. I have had my blog for quite some time but I know there is more I could learn about blogging. We will see if I gain some cool new insights into blogging! I look forward to sharing more with you all soon. If you like what you read in my blog and want to read more, you can subscribe to my blog via email and will receive an email when I update my blog! Feel free to follow and connect with me on social media as well! I have some pretty cool Pinterest boards, and I love to tweet 🙂

Thanks for reading!

–Megan

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52 Weeks of Gratitude Challenge

 

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According to a quick Google search, gratitude can be defined as, “the quality of being thankful.” I know that I haven’t updated my blog since Thanksgiving (please forgive me for my slacking), but my last post was all about being thankful, and what I have learned about thankfulness (what else would I write about on Thanksgiving). But I have really learned over the past few years how to be thankful and not take anything for granted. However, that doesn’t mean I am always faithful in giving thanks when it is due and having an attitude of gratitude.

52 Weeks of Gratitude Challenge

During one of my late night Pinterest explorations, I came across something called “52 Weeks of Gratitude Challenge.” After clicking the link on Pinterest, it took me to a blog of someone who completed the challenge and I loved reading about it (check it out here)! It’s essentially a list of 52 things to blog about, while describing your gratitude towards said things. At least, that is my take on it and what I want it to be. I know that I am always saying how I am going to consistently update my blog and then I fail to follow through, but I thought this 52 week challenge would be a great way to get me blogging at least once a week (and hopefully more)! I’ve already got a topic to write about so no excuses, right?

I won’t be starting the challenge tonight, as I am almost ready for bed since it is after midnight. But I will be starting it either tomorrow or Monday! And I would LOVE it if any other bloggers want to join me in the 52 Weeks of Gratitude Challenge! I think it will be an awesome opportunity to focus on the positive and show gratitude for things often overlooked, no matter how big or small it may be.

Below is an image of the challenge from the above mentioned blog, which I found via Pinterest.

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I hope you will all enjoy following me during this challenge. If you want to subscribe to my blog, I have added a place to do so on my home page. You can just enter your email and will be notified of my new posts. Also, you can follow me on social media by clicking the buttons on my home page.

Thanks for reading!

–Megan